Summer break is half way through and I’m gearing up for more markets. Usually summer is a really rough time for me, it’s when I’m the most likely to relapse into depression. This year, however, has been different, it’s already August and I’m still in good spirits. There are several reasons (including having working A/C in the car) but I think the biggest factor is that I’ve been connecting with other autistic folk online. Figuring out I’m autistic and finding other auties to talk to and compare notes has been like lifting a veil, so many things finally make sense. I spent my whole life feeling different, in ways that I couldn’t explain but certainly didn’t go unnoticed by my pears. I just new that other kids didn’t like me because I was “weird”. There was a feeling that I just fundamentally didn’t belong, there just wasn’t a place for me in this world. Well, it turns out this is a really common experience for autistic folk and now that I’ve found my people, I know I’m not alone, I’ve found my place in the world. With all of the work I’ve done with therapists and doctors and personal effort, nothing has had the swift and massive impact of understanding how my autism has shaped my experience of the world.
One of the best things about doing markets is that I get to connect with other neurodivergent folk as I explain my products. I love the way their eyes light up when they pick up a maze and start pushing the bean around, and I can’t wait to do it again in September.
And on that note, I’m super excited to be part of the first Bi Arts Festival in Toronto. Come see me between 7 and 11pm on Sept. 22 at the Bi Arts Festival Pop-up Market at D-Beatstro*. See lots of great work from Bi+ makers and checkout the launch of a new bi arts zine.